19/10/2008

today, we celebrate my grandma's birthday. she ald 80sth. all kins come and celebrate with her, can imagine how happy is....but i feel very very very bored!!!!!! i can say that i and their relationship is bad even my family. i have ald few month din talk with my brother since we quarreled....the relationship of my parents and i also not u thought that good. ---"impassive". i think i'm the only one who ignored by all. Because of this, my dear n i going more intimate and our affectionate bond being more tight and stable. i knew i can't have this thinking but it reality. it forced by environmental. my cognitive show tis massage for me. i also feel incapable. they dun like i out for whole day = wanna i always stay at home...for what????? what can i do at home??? nobody talk to me, always facing laptop--non living being!!! i wan somebody listen to me and talk to me, i wan laugh and smile, it won't happen when i at home, but it do when he is beside.

i dun mind how ppl felt about us, i really satisfy i got him, coz he can give me warm and secure me. He is the only one who really listen to me and care bout me. love u soooooooooooo mucchh, my lovest!!!!!

出嫁

我要穿着有缝绣龙凤的红色嫁衣； 不是那纯白的婚纱
我要我的丈夫头戴喜帽、身穿中国最传统的礼服来迎娶我
我要我丈夫大锣大鼓、红当当来迎接我
头戴凤冠、盖上红巾；坐在轿上心里等待着最心爱的人来迎娶
掀起盖头的他，温柔地把我那羞答答的下巴上扬，
亲吻羞红的脸颊
彼此挽起手；喝那甘甜的交杯酒
听见他深情地对我说声：我爱你
“我永远都那么的宠你、那么的呵护你、爱你”

我

最近的我变得越来越模糊

可能是压力的关系吧，总之觉得自己越来越麻木了

stupid me

2day the phy lecturer give the quiz suddenly. we are so shock and no prepared for it. damn.... i'm fool of phy.but the question is from the tutorial, we got answer before it but we all din bring it. .... waiting for others answer for copy...... after finish lecture, i was going to library, haiz....i was found out i have bring the tutorial answer in my file, aiyaya.......so regret that i din check my file c that i really bring it o not...... now....

wat the day is??

is totally unlucky day--10/07/08
we(cheng,sean n me) is went out for singk. i hv ald booked the earliest room but need delay for 1 hour....l1l.......bad, coz pick-up wrong bus! we are traveling around at kl for 2 hours-_- boreeee...when in the greenbox on singing song, my coursemate--beelay called!! omg,i thought it is going some bad things happened..ya, i guess it right, was the course canceled. oh......in that time, the feeling is fall down badly from the highest floor. y the lecturer managed follow their like, din consider others ppl, that was making others felt very in trouble n inconvenience!!!
we need start from scratching our schedule.
is very bother!!!!!!! i very hate it. Essentially, our schedule is very smooth and no any trammel but.......that foolish saying cancel, causing many trouble for us!!!

hate!!!hate!!!hate!!!hate!!!hate tis feeling !!!!!!

说不出

过了许久才晓得原来我让她受伤了。
我心很忐忑。
又不知如何是好的感觉

-_-

opening school coming soon....hope can go to school as fast as possible....really boring vf this kind of vacation....i dunno how to describe it, i hv ald know hw bout the working as long time ago, but really can't stand for it!!!!!! maybe is still a student,jz always thinking i no need to do tis hard things....but "M" always kacau me n make me look for job...y everythings need"M"???
i very vry expected my uni life, although hv some troublesome but i very enjoy tis kind of life, can stay together vf my dear friends, oso can earn many knowledges i wanted. can i say i still a teenager?? or adult?? i still hope i 'm a teenager, coz so enjoy tat kind of life....so damn bout working,boring..................