sometime i think y i need to do tis n tat???
essentially, i should relax and enjoy my long vacation but.......
but i scare tat mom and dad, they "talk the hind leg off a donkey"
i'm so headache at there, i'm so boring at there; i'm moody at there!!!!!!!!!!
i can't go anyway i wan
i dun wan c d pp differ vf me
but i'm greedy!!
i need money!!! no money....trouble all coming leh!!!!!
i think i should do OT lo. it's so cost-efficient!!!!
at there,i meet so many ppl i know b4, so pai sieh leh...
i can't say sth i wanted, coz i need to prove sth....
i think i'm not look as same at there, it might be d ppl at there so mature although younger than me one or two year but still felt like......arrrrrrrr..........
before it, i companied vf my pc or laptop over 6 hours, since i'm enter that place, i seldom c my "darling" at all. i miss u so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2day, i c him from behind, he look thinner than b4, feeling worry and pity vf him, i can c he was so tired n tired. i wanna go up n giv him a warm kissing and n lovely hug. after tis month, he are going starting school liao... bu she de....--
but i still need wait for eight week!!!!!! can't tahan la

明天要去JB了。 我知道我将会好想你，好想好想你。。。。。。

finally finished these silly exam laaaaaa^^can c that everybody smile is on their face,brilliant !! all of us were discuss the plan for tis long long holiday. haha...my planning is so abundant,yeh ;)
next week i'll go to jb visit and stay at my fren house; den sunday got a trip at langkawi vf my babe n his buddie after back from langkawi, i have to rush to melaka for visiting my fren's home, wakakak!!! so expected and excited!!!

actually i planed my schedule at friday was like tis de: after finish exam, i had to go for trim my eyebrow den go to low yat for repairing sth. but on thrusday, ah cheng asked me where i going on friday after exam, after i answered her, she suggest go to singk at sg.wang. she such a lover singing person,but can't deny tat her singing is absolutely perfect. as a result, there total 8 ppl go to kl.i was a last person knew tat they would predate to celebrate birthday vf cheng cheng, coz her birth-day is at china, we can't celebrate vf her la...

this was a wonderful day ,coz it really very happy gather with u all...i'll very cherish the memory of today. thkx u all, mu... ak!! singing :wu yan de jie ju my pretty n lonely --hui li ai yo, ah beh bully ah cheng^^ jia xian and me, i look very bizarre

this is 1st time feel really really flipping!!!
wat uni that was??!! ppl study using english language radically, hw come using BM in final de leh???? it was become more and more disgusted when doing this fucker things....
no mood to read anymore tat using BM.....anathematically!!!
after this stupid exam, go to library for study... the couple of Mr n Mrs Ma!!!! arrrr!!!! sooo noisy, hey!! TO ALL MR N MRS "MA" ,Y always make such noise at library, u all dunno wat is L I B R A R Y?????errrrr....haizzzzzzzz...let it b... go to other place..blek
tml got decision making exam, is my last final exam tis sem. thinking of tml, is so wonderful, coz can throw out all heavy books eventually,yaha!!!
so expected!!! can't waiting for 4th of May, this day coming, this is the hope since January....
woo!!! it might got many 1st times happen soon....can't stand anymore!!!!! ^^

pc is my greatest audience

is time i pour out to u...
nobody at home would talk to me
nobody care bout me
nobody want me stay at this home
izzit I'm so hated to all of u??
izzit I'm should not be a member in this family??
I'm useless in home!
I'm a bane in this home!
i need move out from here, i know.....
i think i need to plan for it, i need to rent a room, need to earn money to maintain my life.
sometime i am thinking when can marry out from here...
but not suit for now to marry.
fortunately got u, my laptop, i can abreact all my grief to u...
u wouldn't scold me and won't dislike and avoid me.
when the timing is mature, i'll satisfy all your hopes, i'll moving out from here.
i will try my best to keep away from u all, i will not incommode u all.
hope i can do it ASAP....
(actually i don't want think like that but failed, i can't control my emotion , i also hope i can think to positive way. but i'm influenced by u all; control by u all)
how sad i am???
when can i stop to tear....i just wanna a peace and a warm safety home,but not the environment that every time make me sad n sad....i don;t want cry and weep all the time!!

^^

我是幸福的。
although i couldn't get this kind of feeling in home. but it is enough, got him beside with me is totally enough. i think i can't look for tis kind of love from anyone but him... i don't mind about his look like, don't mind he is wealth or not; his loving and caring is totally enough. at this time, i have already knew how much he love me,he love me more than loving himself.
i love u as same as u love me,dear............

today is 10th of Arpil

feeling sadness again. my problem still cn't b solve. while i still can put a bold front on it n let myself live well.
my younger sister is so bother,actually i no need wake up so early tis morning,but need to help tis stupid fellow to sth i'm not willing to do.
while,i still force to take my printer ink to refill. it is my mom's order. blek...coz the malay guy act as snail, slow slow~~~n cause my mom couldn't did her work. she angry..felt like angry me.. but i couldn't do nth..
why every time bully me n make me hurt like tat??
i wan u,Ivan, always beside me when i feeling blue...