pleasantly surprised

in exam...ing....
i falling in studying recently, 临时抱佛脚
there r no any snacks at home, snack is oli things that make me won't fall to sleep when studying...
but i really can't find anythings can eat a home....haiz... my mouth so itchhh...
especially at the night,even though i have been having my dinner. i really admit that i'm a guttler.
as usual, he call me, i said i can tahan my itch mouth, i wanna eat sth, better now have many many fresh fruit at my front!!!! but he said hard to look for the fruit have had cut and sell at night de...
den i eliminate my desire....after end the speech, i begin to imagine that he start to out and look for sth eat for me and give me surprise!!!!but....i think it won't happen because it too dark... and i continue my physic!!!!hate tis subject!!!!
suddenly i heard a familiar sound of car engine,is his car, but it is impossible that he will come to my house because now he should stay at home n watch tv de...
the phone ringing!!!is him! he ask me come out, he give me two big packs!!! den give me a sweet kissing!^^i back to room and open the packs, ohoh!!!is my favourite snack and some fresh fruit !!!
it is really touching, even though it juz sth normal,but.............
thanks my lovest!!! i love u

沒有你在身邊的日子

很難過！
你知道吗？这几天，我真的很难过。。。
没有你，那少许的欢乐都被抽掉
听不到你对我说：我爱你，我很不习惯
没有你的肩膀，在坚固的墙也会倒塌
在这几天里，让我发现你在我心中是多么的重要
不用我说，你一定知道我什么时候该吃东西，因为你知道什么时候我肚子会饿咯！
不用我出声，你一看我脸色，就知道我想什么；知道我开心还是不开心
你会马上哄回我，然后把我抱紧紧地
做什么事情你都会在身边支持我；一定会尽量帮我完成
你不会让我感到害怕、孤单；总是嬉皮笑脸的对我说：我爱你
在家里总是听到埋怨、冷酷的语言
我其实不是很喜欢在家的感觉，总觉得无形中的压力逼迫着
没有我想要的欢笑快乐，好久没有在家真正的开心笑过了
一直以来，他们的每一言一语、一举一动，都让我联想到不开心的事，让我觉得在家毫无意义
我知道我不能说出我心所想的，不满的，因为我没资格
我也不会反驳，不会辩护；即使不是我的错，即使是误会。。。
因为在家，信任不会出现在我身上的
你出国这几天，我都呆在家，忧伤增加，没有笑过了
可是如果你在，你就会让我暂离这种我一直想逃避的忧伤
你会把欢笑带来、把幸福拉近。
如果我是男生就好了。。。。

i dunn wann

明天，他就要去公司的旅行了
虽然只是4天3夜
但还是很不舍得，因为没有得联络嘛T-T
其实你也不是第一次出国。。但还是不想你去嘛！！！
记得和你一起的第一年，你第一次出国
我每晚临睡前都会哭包，都是你害的，谁叫我那么想念你。。。
已经第五年了，你出国也不懂有多少次了
每一次都会好像第一次你出国一样的那么不舍得
你去到那么远，我会很担心的
不要说你出国，即使你在家我也会担心的，只不过没那么担心，至少可以连咯嘛
可是你出国了就不能了嘛................................
祝你一路顺风、平平安安归来
疼你咯

Jusco day = worst day

tml was cheras balakong Jusco member day.
i very unhappy that moments...
!!!!!!!!!!!raining + jam + crowded!!!!!!!!!
i knew that was very very cheap sale there, there would many ppl around there.
but i really hate that environment!!!!shit!!
i angry with him also, but no reason i did it.
he talked to me and hubbub frequently
i dun wan be like that but i dun know why i still carried an anger look
the worst is i heard from mom just now, she said:we actually can get few voucher from total amounts that item we bought. is cash voucher~~~~my mom spent RM400sth and i
spent RM100 sth. total can get voucher,RM70sth.
when i heard it, i really angry that i din know it matter
but.................
i cool down immediately, because it was passed, can't get back anything!!!!!
but i heard my mom n dad blame me and wrangle about this matter, non-stop!!!!!!
fan!fan!fan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wan him, i wan him laaaaaaaa!!

19/10/2008

today, we celebrate my grandma's birthday. she ald 80sth. all kins come and celebrate with her, can imagine how happy is....but i feel very very very bored!!!!!! i can say that i and their relationship is bad even my family. i have ald few month din talk with my brother since we quarreled....the relationship of my parents and i also not u thought that good. ---"impassive". i think i'm the only one who ignored by all. Because of this, my dear n i going more intimate and our affectionate bond being more tight and stable. i knew i can't have this thinking but it reality. it forced by environmental. my cognitive show tis massage for me. i also feel incapable. they dun like i out for whole day = wanna i always stay at home...for what????? what can i do at home??? nobody talk to me, always facing laptop--non living being!!! i wan somebody listen to me and talk to me, i wan laugh and smile, it won't happen when i at home, but it do when he is beside.

i dun mind how ppl felt about us, i really satisfy i got him, coz he can give me warm and secure me. He is the only one who really listen to me and care bout me. love u soooooooooooo mucchh, my lovest!!!!!

出嫁

我要穿着有缝绣龙凤的红色嫁衣； 不是那纯白的婚纱
我要我的丈夫头戴喜帽、身穿中国最传统的礼服来迎娶我
我要我丈夫大锣大鼓、红当当来迎接我
头戴凤冠、盖上红巾；坐在轿上心里等待着最心爱的人来迎娶
掀起盖头的他，温柔地把我那羞答答的下巴上扬，
亲吻羞红的脸颊
彼此挽起手；喝那甘甜的交杯酒
听见他深情地对我说声：我爱你
“我永远都那么的宠你、那么的呵护你、爱你”

我

最近的我变得越来越模糊

可能是压力的关系吧，总之觉得自己越来越麻木了